It all started with a puppy and a baby in a driveway.
As they crawled towards each other, we knew we were getting good neighbors. We didn’t know we were getting So. Much. More.
That baby and puppy are now four years old. And soon, the boy who is no longer a baby will pack up his mom and his dad and his sister and move away. I’ve known this day was coming for awhile now, from the moment they sat us down and said “So, we got this email – and we’re just exploring – but this is possible.” And there’s no doubt that they are heading to greatness – to a place that is filled with family and opportunities and God whispering to take brave steps. And in that, there are many reasons for happy squeals.
But also, they’re leaving (insert whine). And while friends moving away isn’t new – I guess you could say it’s one of the costs of living in Southern California – there is something very new about their move. Because there was something very new about their friendship and the way we got to do life together. So I’m getting a whole new set of questions directed towards me … “How are you doing with this?” … “Will you be okay?” … at first I was put off by the attention, wanting to say I’m not so pathetic that my life won’t go on without them.
I wanted to say it’s no big deal.
ButI knew that would be a lie. And it got me wondering – I don’t know why we’re all afraid to say that the people in our lives are a big deal. And really, how sad would it be if friends moving away was met with a “meh” and a shrug. But somehow, I felt the need to down-play my response. To down-play the impact their move will have on my life in some desperate attempt to prove independence or something equally stupid. And yes, I do have other friends, but I don’t have another Nick, Karen, Finnden and Ellis – and having them for the last four years is such a big, beautiful deal.
Because every now and then we get friends that make our story better – like meeting characters in a book that you didn’t realize were even missing until you meet them and sit back and say “ah yes, this is a better story now”. They are the characters that make you laugh so hard that no sound is coming out. The ones that help you heal. That grab a flashlight and hold it out in the dark and scary places God calls you into. The ones that make you jump into a pool with all your clothes on. That will down a cheeseburger and donuts with you at midnight. The ones that play a major role in the scenes choked by laughter and the ones drowning in tears.
The days that started with a puppy and a baby in a driveway became nights of laughter around a dinner table. Talks that started with the traditional “what do you do?” evolved into “who are you as your truest self?” Through walks and talks and game nights and movie nights and play dates and work days and heart-times and hard-times those questions found answers. Through diapers and long work shifts and hard losses and great wins we grew and changed. Through celebrating together. Through mourning together. Through sharing words, and the moments that there are no words for. Through watching and waiting. Together.
And somewhere, in between the simple days and the deep places, friends became these friends. And my story was bettered because their baby met my puppy in the driveway.
I recently read this question: “How expensive is it to be rich in friends?” Answer: So expensive. Especially when you say “goodbye” or “see ya later” or “send me pictures of your new home! and your new friends! except the skinny pretty ones, don’t send me their pictures”. So expensive – if you’re willing. And we should always, always be willing.
It’s tempting – in this season of change – to decide that this is the Last Great Goodbye that I’m willing to make. But I know that’s not me. We decided long ago that the currency we’d most prefer to be rich in is friends, and we are indeed wealthy, so with that comes costs. So I’m choosing to feel it all, and to be willing to feel it again. I’m choosing to feel the deep sense of gratitude to the Great Storyteller who knew I needed a Nick, a Karen, a Finnden and an Ellis. I’m choosing to answer questions about how I’m doing with their move by celebrating that people matter – that friends are a big deal. I’m choosing to let myself cry even as I write this, because tears are the bodies’ way of saying that something matters. I’m choosing to cherish each memory of Finn and Ellis growing teeth and personalities and knowing that even if I don’t make it into their long-term memory, I got to give them a special place in mine. I’m choosing to rejoice with friends that are following God’s voice and will again be surrounded by seasons (I’ve heard there are 4) and grandparents. I’m praying for the new friends that will fill their living room and their hearts – yes, even the skinny pretty friends.
And I’m choosing to be ready. Ready to share life across the country instead of across the room. Ready for surprises that show up in a driveway. Ready to be messy and generous and needy and real. Ready to live life that is both expensive and rich. Ready to say that we should all be so lucky to live life so wholly together that a friend moving away is Such. A. Big. Deal.
4 thoughts on “The one that began with a baby and a puppy”
Thank you for once again putting into words feelings I have and do feel about friends in my life, namely, the Millers! And please right my eulogy someday because you know how to say “love” about the best of anyone I’ve ever known!!!! I know it costs you to write your heart on the screen of your computer and I personally want you to know it makes a difference in my life! Thank you for sharing so honestly!!!!! I love you dear friend!!!!!
Robyn you know how to say “encouragement” better than anyone I’ve ever known! Love you friend!
So glad you’re writing! And boy Robyn hit it on the head with her response! I echo her thoughts! Thank you for making a difference in my life!!!!
Thank you friend!
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