When they said long road to recovery, I may or may not have envisioned a rather straight path through a meadow – long, yes, but it might have had a yellow-brick-tinge in my minds eye because I’d get to walk it holding my mans hand.
So when nurses raced into my husbands hospital room on the first night after being released from ICU, I may or may not have had a post-traumatic reaction (spoiler alert: that’s gonna keep happening). All of a sudden I was hearing alarms and bells that I had categorized as last weeks trauma, and I was very unready to live it again.
So no, this long road to recovery isn’t a smooth path through rolling hills. It’s got some funky detours, wide turns, caution signs and even some u-turns. And in some sections, it has two distinct footpaths, because only one of us was awake for five days of it – so our stories, our memories, our lessons from this will look and sound different from each other.
This long road will involve many more tests, some days will have more questions than answers, rehab will teach the heart and muscles to rebuild, therapy will help our souls heal, friends and family will continue to enrich our lives with selfless love, meaningless drama (here’s looking at you, Oscars 2016) will be its own form of medicine, cooking and grocery shopping and marriage will look different, and our stories will unfold. Emphasis on OUR.
Because living a miracle takes time.
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Have become familiar with your recent journey through a prayer request by the Fizzards… praying with you through this time. Thank you for your honesty, your perspective and for allowing me to come alongside in prayer. God is faithful – may you and your husband know beyond all doubt that He is with you each moment.
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble…
therefore, we will not fear.” Psalm 46:1
“I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress:
My God, in Him will I trust.” Psalm 91:2
“Fear not, I am with thee – O be not dismayed, for I am thy God, I will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen thee, help thee and cause thee to stand,
upheld by My gracious, Omnipotent Hand.”
“What more can He say than to you He hath said ~
To you, who for refuge to Jesus have fled.”
Embracing you two precious ones in prayer through His Word and song, and loving you from afar.
We have and are walking this walk. It began in December and we are continuing. I have a tremendous amount of empathy for you and am praying. We, as well as all those praying for us have been strengthened through this trial and has definitely given me more compassion for those going through it. You have my prayers and I will look forward to hearing that Jason is running without growing weary…on the wings of eagles!
Tracy